so i was watching the boise state vs. oklahoma university tostitos fiesta bowl and seriously, it was probably the best game i've ever seen. granted, i haven't watched that many games.. this one was still amazing. for some odd reason, watching an underdog like boise state win was pretty awesome. i mean, it gives me a sense of faith, something along the lines of anything being possible. although this somewhat naive idea of "you can do anything as long as you have the heart and the sheer want to do so" will soon fade from my mind, the last two minutes of the game, in addition to overtime and that final two point conversion probably won't, at least not for a while. anyway, hope you all had a good holiday season, i know i did.

once again, summer is beginning to wind itself down and i'm finding myself closer and closer to the start of another school year, one that will probably be one of the most grueling, as i'm starting to take on a lot more academically and trust me.. i'm not that smart, so it's going to take me a little more than sunshine and rainbows to get me through. anyway, upon reaching this period in the cycle that has encompassed the past 18 years of my life, i decided to do a little reflection on my current emotions. so here goes nothing.

i guess my major emotion right now is a sort of loneliness, one that i didn't expect to hit me so roughly. people have already started to go back to school, a place that some people didn't even leave to begin with. visiting hours are over and now i'm here, trying to find ways to keep myself busy.. yeah, i know, it's kind of sad, right? it's weird because you'd think i'd be sad about not having any friends at home.. but i'm not.. if anything, i think what makes me sad is the ever so slight inclination that arcadia might no longer be my home.. i was never that person that had tons of people to hang out with and numerous parties to go to, and i really don't think i ever will be.. so that's all okay with me.. but nothing's worse than not being able to be where you want to, with people you want to be with..a feeling that i've become best friends with, as of late.. but i guess i have my family.. but everyone's at work all the time, leaving me at home for a good chunk of the day.. so is the trade off really worth it? i mean, if not for my family, i'd probably still be residing in my little piece of awesome in mira mesa, basking in the sun on the beaches of the san diego coastline every single day.. so what does this mean? maybe i'm at one of the crossroads in my life.. and maybe, just maybe.. it's time to say goodbye to this little town of asian and go onto something else, be it bigger, smaller, better, or worse.. i guess we'll just have to wait and see. but right now, nothing sounds better than getting out of this town.. so thank you arcadia, see you soon, san diego.